Friday, April 24, 2009

The Lord's constant provision

I'm almost done with my first year of college. I will never be a freshman ever again. :) I'm extremly excited for next year and what it brings! I'm in the perfect major for me and my passions. I have AMAZING friends that I'm excited to continue to grow closer to! My schedule of almost all Bible classes is sooooo exciting! I can't wait!

God has done SOOO many amazing things in my life this year! I cannot thank Him enough! He is constantly providing me with blessings and meeting my needs even before I have them! It's crazy! I can't wait to see what He has in store for me next!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

That's My King!!! :)

He’s the King of righteousness.
He’s the King of the ages.
He’s the King of Heaven.
He’s the King of glory.
He’s the King of kings and He is the Lord of lords.
Now that’s my King.
Well I wonder if you know Him
My King is the only one whom there are no means of measure can define His limitless love.
No barriers can hinder Him from pouring out His blessing
He’s enduringly strong.
He’s entirely sincere.
He’s eternally steadfast.
He’s immortally graceful.
He’s imperially powerful.
He’s impartially merciful.
That’s my King.
He’s God’s Son.
He’s the sinner’s saviour.
He’s the centrepiece of civilization.
He stands alone in Himself.
He’s august.
He’s unique.
He’s unparalleled.
He’s unprecedented.
He’s supreme.
He’s pre-eminent.
Well, He’s the loftiest idea in literature.
He’s the highest personality in philosophy.
He’s the supreme problem in high criticism.
He’s the fundamental doctrine of proved theology.
He’s the carnal necessity of spiritual religion.
That’s my King. He’s the miracle of the age.
He’s the superlative of everything good that you choose to call Him.
Well, He’s the only one able to supply all of our needs simultaneously.
He supplies strength for the weak.
He’s available for the tempted and the tried.
He sympathizes and He saves.
He’s strong God and He guides.
He heals the sick.
He cleanses the lepers.
He forgives sinners.
He discharged debtors.
He delivers the captives.
He defends the feeble.
He blesses the young.
He serves the unfortunate.
He regards the aged.
He rewards the diligent and He beautifies the meek.
Do you know Him?
Well, my King is the key of knowledge.
He’s the wellspring of wisdom.
He’s the doorway of deliverance.
He’s the pathway of peace.
He’s the roadway of righteousness.
He’s the highway of holiness.
He’s the gateway of glory.
He’s the master of the mighty.
He’s the captain of the conquerors.
He’s the head of the heroes.
He’s the leader of the legislatures.
He’s the overseer of the overcomers.
He’s the governor of governors.
He’s the prince of princes.
He’s the King of kings and He’s the Lord of lords.
That’s my King.
His office is manifold.
His promise is sure.
His light is matchless.
His goodness is limitless.
His mercy is everlasting.
His love never changes.
His Word is enough.
His grace is sufficient.
His reign is righteous.
His yoke is easy and His burden is light.
Well. I wish I could describe Him to you, but He’s indescribable.
He’s incomprehensible.
He’s invincible.
He’s irresistible.
I’m coming to tell you, the heavens of heavens cannot contain Him, let alone a man explaining Him. You can’t get Him out of your mind.
You can’t get Him off of your hands.
You can’t outlive Him and you can’t live without Him.
Well, Pharisees couldn’t stand Him, but they found out they couldn’t stop Him.
Pilot couldn’t find any fault in Him.
The witnesses couldn’t get their testimonies to agree.
Herod couldn’t kill Him.
Death couldn’t handle Him and the grave couldn’t hold Him.
That’s my King. Yeah.
He always has been and He always will be.
I’m talking about He had no predecessor and He’ll have no successor.
There was nobody before Him and there’ll be nobody after Him.
You can’t impeach Him and He’s not going to resign.
That’s my King! That’s my King!
Thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory.
Well, all the power belongs to my King.
We’re around here talking about black power and white power and green power, but it’s God’s power. Thine is the power.
And the glory.
We try to get prestige and honour and glory for ourselves, but the glory is all His.
Thine is the Kingdom and the power and glory, forever and ever and ever and ever. How long is that? And ever and ever and ever and ever. And when you get through with all of the evers, then, Amen.
—Dr. S. M. Lockridge

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

On the Waters of Sorrow

O My child, I am coming to thee walking upon the waters of the sorrows of thy life; yea, above the sounds of the storm ye shall hear My voice calling thy name.
Ye are never alone, for I am at thy right hand. Never despair, for I am watching over and caring for thee. Be NOT anxious. What seemth to thee to be at present a difficult situation is all part of My planning and I am working out the details of circumstances to the end that I may bless thee and revel Myself to thee in a new way.
As I have opened thine eyes to see, so shall I open thine ears to hear, and ye shall come to know Me even as did Moses, yea, in a face-to-face relationship.
For I shall remove the veil that separates Me from thee as a bright star in the night sky. Never let thy faith waver. Reach out thy hand, and thou shalt touch the hem of My garment.

(From "Come Away My Beloved" by Frances J. Roberts)

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Come Away My Beloved

So yeah... lots of saddness has been in my life lately. But thanks to my Savior and Father I am overcoming this horrble situation.

I'm slowly seeing the Hannah that I was in high school SLOWLY coming back! I miss her. I've know this all myy life but I read about it in one of my new books and it really hit me today. The facti s that God has known my ending from the begining. All of this has a meaning. I think the meaning of this trial is to strengthen my relationship with the Lord and to remind me that that is the most important thing of all. If you're not in a right relationship with God, everything else will fall away. Period.

I'm excited to see what God has in store for my future!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Hannah's hope

This past week has been a very intersting one for me. I've been thinking a lot about the future, more specifically having babies. I came to some very sad realizations at the begining of the week that ripped my heart apart. I've known these things for a long time but they've resurfaced and hit me really hard. I automatically went to the Lord....

He responded to me in a very powerful way. I have NEVER felt the Lord's presence SO strong than at that moment. He prompted me to look on the library's website for books on dealing with infertility......I literally started to shake. I had found it! The title..."Hannah's Hope: Seeking God's Heart in the Midst of Inertility, Miscarriage, and Adoption Loss." As if the title wasn't enough the book is my favoite color; yellow. AND as I started to read I learned that the author has endometriosis (the reason I'm worried about my own future) and works at a Crisis Pregnancy Center type-thing (my dream job). It's crazy!

I know that I am not even married yet, and that I may be too young to even think about how many kids I want to have...but I can't help it! It's the thing that I'm passionate about! It's the thing that I long for! I can't help but think about it!

I've learned though that my weakness lies in the fact that I have always had difficulty in giving the Lord total control over my life. I don't know why but I have a hard time putting all my trust in Him. It doesn't make any sense but that the thing that I struggle with the most. I'm working my hardest to overcome it!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Excited yet sad...

So, this school year is very close to being over. The number of musical rehearsals are winding down and the realization that high school theatre is over, is now settling in. It's hard to think that the safety net that I have in the CPA and with my friends will soon be yanked out from under me. Now of course, next year I will have Charlie which is wonderful! But, I'm just really going to miss the laid-back feeling of our theatre department.

As crazy as it may seem, I'm going to miss what we are doing right now: cramming for a show. Right now we have six rehearsals until the show goes up and we are missing dances to three of the songs and blocking for one of the scenes. The vocals are pretty good (of course there are rough places), but the lines aren't all there. We still had people with script in hand yesterday! The set doesn't really exist and therefore there is nothing to set lighting for, so we have no lighting. And as crazy as this all sounds, I think I'm going to miss it.

I'm not going to miss economy class or having to use web cams to see Charlie though! I'm excited to be in a new environment where people (for the most part) have strong Christian morals. I'm very fortunate to already have some friends there and to already know my wonderful roommate! I guess in a way I'm ready for change. I'm ready to be in the same state as Charlie for more than four days at a time! I'm ready to break away from this worldly, material thinking and instead focus solely on Jesus Christ.

I'm going to try to savor these last few days here and not take any of them for granted.



Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Frustration!

A lot of things frustrated me today:

1.) My boyfriend lives far away (905 miles actually). Of course this frustrates me every day.
2.) My economy teacher cannot teach...at all. He is very confusing and I sometimes feel like his homework has no point. Like today I had to make a "Help Wanted" sign for the BLS...why?!
3.) Musical rehearsals are fun, but not really when you sit there for three hours thinking that you are needed and then realize that actually you probably didn't have to come at all (although it can be fun watching all the other dances go on!) :D
4.) Our murder mystery show goes up on Friday. It was supposed to go up in March but we had a blizzard so it got pushed back. I used to have all my lines down, but for some reason I'm struggling now! That's very frustrating.
5.) I have an inflammatory auto immune disease that is in my tongue (it swells in certain places and is extremely painful) and I've gone to the doctor and he didn't really know what to do for me, but said that I should wait and if it happens three more times I'm supposed to call him and he will schedule me for emergency surgery (i hate surgeries). Well, since that visit my tongue has freaked out once, but today it happened again! One more time to go!

Other than that though my day has gone okay! Sorry about the ranting above but I had to get that out! My grandpa is here right now! He and my day are re-doing the deck for my graduation party!!!! So my dad's in a good mood because he loves this stuff. My dad works soo hard, it's good to see him happy! :D And I'm excited b/c Charlie comes for prom in 29 days! We're in the 20s! Whoohoo!

Well, I think I'm going to go and finish my stupid "Help Wanted" ad now...until next time...